School

Hey everyone havent been on in a while...at least on here lol...School starts tomorrow and Im excited :) I cant wait for it to start so that nursing school can be over so I can start practicing...I love to help people and i completely feel that this is the direction that God has set out for me...Especially after I tried for two years to get my business degree...yea definitely wasnt meant for that career lol...... Im excited to be able to be blessed with a good friend that will be going through the nursing program with me...Connecia has been a blessing and a great friend the last few months and will be a blessing as a friend for the next 2 1/2 yrs as well :)

Surgery

Ok so it has been a while since I have posted I just got released from the hospital yesterday after having gallbladder surgery. They ended up completely removing it. It makes me so angry to think that the Sparks hospital was going to let it go. I was told here at Longview Memorial in Texas that if I had let it slide then I would have had a major infection and it would have been an emergency surgery..... but on the upside it is fixed now :) Im in pain but im trying to look at the otherside of things and remember that on the otherside is the sunlight and in order for it to get better it has to get worse first. I just found out today that I made and A and B in my summer 2 classes which means one thing......Nursing school HERE I COME :) I am absolutely excited I would jump up and down if i could lmao..... Im ready to start feeling better so i can have a decent night sleep/......so i guess ill go for now ill write later :)

Sunday

Well I havent really been blogging much. I guess Ive been kinda in my own world. I went to the octor sat about problems that Ive been having. I went to the doctor twice about my ulcer and within the last week I have had three attacks so I went back to the doctor yesterday and I have to go and get an ultrasound of my gallbladder. Im kind of scared. I now that the gallbladder isnt something major or something that I cant live with out but it doesnt mean that Im not scared. So anyway I only have 4 days left of summer 2 left Im excited because that means that Im that much closer to starting the nursing program :)

3 Weeks

Ok so its been a while since I have typed on the blog...I dont know if its cause ive been busy or just havent wanted to. I know its not really cause ive been busy because besides school and taking care of my daughter I really havent done anything. Which in my standards is fine by me. I know that right now is the best time to relax and do nothing cause when it comes to my first semester in nursing school I will be busy busy. I dont know that I will have time for anything but studying and taking care of my beautiful girl autumn. I love her so much.... I would do anything for her....Im glad that she is in my life :)

Here a pic of her :)

Another day goes by...

okay so its been a few days since Ive blogged...not really been busy just haven't really had much to say ...lol Well today has been one of those days that have been kinda rough for me...not for any perticular reason just one of those days.....So i have to give a speech on Thursday and have been working trying to get my outline done....still not done I might add I still have to type it but thats ok that can be done.....it is possible...I've been feeling better not as much nausea but I still have a little.....Helps me with my weight loss I guess lol ......46.5 pounds 50 more to go woo hoo..Im going to look SEXI !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday Morning

Ok so here it is it's Saturday morning.....and i don't wanna do anything. Now I'm not saying I don't have things that I should be doing I just don't want to do them. I have a whole list of things I can do, but it seems any time I eat any more I get nauseous, stress. I'm dealing with alot of stress and I've had a real hard time trying to actual manage it. I ended in the hospital a little over a week ago because of an ulcer and I blame it all on stress. It's my fault I stress but still nonetheless. I really like doing this blog because I can write here and not really care what people think about it :P One of these days my blogs will be good ones :) I am currently in school I am in the summer 2 session right now. I am taking American national Government and Speech. i can sum both of these classes in 1 word....BORING. I saved these classes for my last prereqs because I thought that since I hate history/government and I don't like speaking in front of people I would save them for my 5 week courses. In the year that I have been going to the University of Arkansas Fort Smith I have had to do an oral presentation in almost every one of them so it really isn't that bad. I'm not nervous to give my speeches. I guess after the last 5 week course I had having two easy classes isn't bad. I've been going through a real hard time lately I've been going through a seperation and I am currently living back with my mother whom has been wonderful through all of this. It really hard to say that everything will be okay when I am ending an almost 5 year marriage. I really wish things could have been different. But I have my 4 year old daughter to keep me busy and I will be entering the Bachelors program for nursing and in 2 1/2 years I will have my Bachelors in Science in Nursing degree. I can't wait!!!!! So until next time ....................... :P

Don't give up.....by: unkown author
One day I decided to quit...
I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality... I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.
"God", I asked, "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"
His answer surprised me...
"Look around", He said."Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"
"Yes", I replied.
"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them.
I gave them light.
I gave them water.
The fern quickly grew from the earth.
Its brilliant green covered the floor.
Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.
In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful.
And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.
He said."In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed.
But I would not quit.
In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed.
I would not quit."
He said "Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth.
Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall
It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.
I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle."
He asked me."Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots".
"I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you."
"Don't compare yourself to others." He said.
"The bamboo had adifferent Purpose than the fern. Yet they both make the forest beautiful." "Your time will come", God said to me. "You will rise high"
"How high should I rise?" I asked.
"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.
"As high as it can?" I questioned. "Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."
I left the forest and brought back this story.
I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.Never, Never, Never Give up.
For the Christian Prayer is not an option but an opportunity. Don't tell the Lord how big the problem is, tell the problem how Great the Lord is! -----------------


Ok so I know that was long but u know that this is absolutely true. I feel that God has a purpose for me. I may not know what God has in store for me but I know that it will be amazing. I have such a long journey to go to get back on that road that God wants me on. I want to get back into church and find my path. I have gone SO far from that path that I cant even see that road any more, but I am trying so hard to find it. But i will never be able to without his help. Well i guess if your reading my blog you can follow me through my path in life. I will be trying to go for celibacy through the years of my nursing school.....which I start in the fall woohoo.....until next time :)